not to walk away…

March 5, 2008

I’m tired.  I can’t seem to focus on certain things because I feel helpless and restless.  Work is becoming more and more demanding.  But I can’t seem to move.  Things are waiting to get done, but my actions are short of what I’m supposed to perform.  What do I do???

It’s a difficult time for me.  A lot of things are left hanging.  So many uncertainties that I don’t even want to look at any of them.  I wake up each day and I face this battle.  Not knowing how things might turn out.  Every hour and every minute pass.  But I’m still here.  Even though things get so blurry and everything seems to move in a slow-paced manner, I still manage to stay…and not walk away.

If this doesn’t really mean a thing to me, it would have been easier to turn my back and just leave.  But I stayed.  I’m still here.  And most probably, I’d still be here for a while…